The Transformation

i am not a collection of pain.
i am not meant to spend my days
in the embrace of sadness.
i am light and happiness by day
then dark and tearful by night.
i am all confidence in what i love
but loose the ability to say "no"
when in love.

i am not a collection of pain.
i came to believe i was.
i came to believe it was all i would know.
after all i have accomplished
i still believed i needed
the validation of another to feel "seen".
i became comfortable with pain.
i knew what to do with its sharpness.
i have had enough.

i am not a collection of pain.
i see myself as i truly am.
i am a well of experience and life.
i radiate love's energy.
i live in the arms of laughter.
i am discovering the root of
my sadness so i may pull it out.
i am an attractor of goodness.
i am infinitely more than what i
see in the mirror.

i am a collection of love.
i hold within me every
look of joy i see when i am
in the prescence of those who
love me.
i am immersed on all sides
in the light of God's hopes for me.
i am happiness.
i am love.