I Hope

I will not pray for the pain to be taken away.
This time I will pray for the thorn to be removed.
I will not pray for the emptiness to subside.
This time I will pray for how to fill the holes.
I will not pray for the aching loneliness to be soothed.
This time I will pray for understanding and peace.

I hope I will have the strength and the faith
to actively participate in my healing.
I hope that I don't let the negative thoughts
in my mind arrest my development.
I hope I will never again shed a tear
for a broken heart too easily given.

I hope it is the Will of God that I walk away whole.
I hope it is in the Plan of God for me to step into nobility.
I hope it is the Wish of God that I am finally able to slay my demons.
I hope...

Closing Heart

Shut down
Shut down
Time to shut down.
In t-minus 15 seconds
there will be a total
system shut down.
Terminate all attachments
Close and lock doors to vulnerability
Prepare for all system
shut down in t-minus
10 seconds.
Cut energy to feelings of love
Discontinue unquestioning trust
Shut down in
5, 4, 3, 2...
Shut down complete
Enjoy your freedom.

To Live a Life Uncommon

Looking into the setting sun
she imagined flying into it
awash in color and brilliance.
Looking into eyes
she sees reflected back to her
the love that connects
herself to all others.
When encountered with
an injustice she has the courage
not to become a victim
nor a reluctant bystander.
Feeling the hands of the wind
upon her skin she envisions
a passing touch from God Himself.
Facing the prospect of vulnerablity
she balances an open heart with wisdom
that she may not compromise
integrity for companionship.
Walking the road of life
she chooses to be responsible
for her choices that she may not
lie in the hopes of a momentary
sense of peace.
Daring to see the God in every
stranger that she may not
shrink back from the pain
nor happiness of others.
Looking into the setting sun
she imagined flying into it
awash in color and brilliance.

She Lost Herself

She lost herself somewhere
between hello and rejection.
Patterns played out with
comfortable certainty
She isn't sure how to feel
Everything and nothing was different
Her poetry dripped with confusion
Words painfully pulled
from the images lodged
in her mind.
He watched her create her pain
He was silent when she said
she loved him
she missed him
she thought of him
He watched and waited
until she understood
She lost herself somewhere
between hello and rejection.

Be At Peace

Be at peace
Be full of happiness
Live a life of integrity
Find that quiet space inside
Unabashedly realease your sunlight
This has been a journey of epic proportions
One never to make its way
into the pages of antiquity
yet
It is a journey found in
the heart of human history
A sorjourn every soul concious
person has taken
My story will not be told
but
it does join the ocean
of humanity's collective
experience.
Be at peace.

Soul Friends

In a phone call
I laid out the burdens of my heart
and you listened without judgement.
Through the miles of wire
I felt the love
and warmth of your heart.
You listened
as tears fell like great stones
from my eyes
and I could feel your hand
reach through the phone
to wipe them away.
At no time is one more
aware of the indescribable
bond of spiritual friendship
than when such a person lovingly
shares the burdens of your
aching heart.
Truly,
soul friends are wonderous
gifts from God for which
to be deeply thankful.
In a phone call
I laid out the burdens of my heart
and you listened without judgement.